Lost Time
Your kind hands…they once held mine…
Now they hold anothers while I rest in lost time.
Oh how I know…I should offer well wishes,
It was my unraveling that brought us to this end.
With a heavy heart, I hold back the tears…
Yet I cannot keep them under lock and key.
Just allow me to gaze out of this window,
So my face won’t show what you don’t want to see.
Don’t watch me as I break into pieces
I keep my face hidden in the dark of night…
How do I give a kind blessing…
When I would much rather keep up the fight.
© bipolarmuse 2012
This is my life through poetry, quotes, and my journal. The intense ride of my ups and downs of life ...and the relentless mood disorders I suffer from.
Thats more like you Riss!
June 18, 2012 at 11:07 AM
June 18, 2012 at 11:08 AM
Oh my. I feel every word of this. I needed to read this on Thursday
June 18, 2012 at 11:23 AM
How do you let go? How do you forget that he is touching another? How do you forget that your name is not bliss to him anymore, yet it now twists him into an unknown beast.
June 18, 2012 at 11:25 AM
It is very hard to let go… I have no clue truly how to. Even moving on into another relationship didn’t help.
I guess time… it all comes down to time.
June 18, 2012 at 11:35 AM
How about a couple relationships?
Is closure necessary to move on?
June 18, 2012 at 12:06 PM
Maybe closure isn’t needed. I know for myself… the pain was my doing… then ending of the relationship was my weakness… and I can’t get it back. Just the chance to try again would make me happy, yet it is impossible.
June 18, 2012 at 1:33 PM
Reblogged this on onlinefunland.
June 18, 2012 at 11:36 AM
the feelng of gettng hurt ,still managing to remain calm..
June 18, 2012 at 11:41 AM
Exactly… ♥
June 18, 2012 at 11:43 AM
Indeed….the words jump at me like fire….Oh the misery and bittersweet emotions of lost love….this was truly wonderful….
Celeste
June 18, 2012 at 1:00 PM
Thank you Celeste. Now that I am single, I am tapping back into that pain I never really dealt with. I need to get over it somehow… I guess one day at a time will bring about healing. I am hoping. ♥
June 18, 2012 at 1:35 PM
“So my face won’t show what you don’t want to see.” …. I love this phrase. Beautiful poem, Muse; sorrow, pain, regret – not wanting to let go, but needing to. A lovely write, loved this. ~ Julie xoxox
June 18, 2012 at 1:16 PM
Ahhhh, it is so bittersweet Julie. I will see him later this week. He is my exhusband and Father to my 2 youngest children. I am traveling to TX so I can spend time with all of my children at the same time. It is wonderful, yet bittersweet. It always makes me long for the family we once had together. Yet I was the one who walked away three years ago. If I had the opportunity to walk back, I certainly would. ♥
June 18, 2012 at 2:02 PM
& it’s said that Time & Tide wait for no one…
I say we make our times; who leaves is just paving a way for a better to come…
Love & Light
June 18, 2012 at 2:46 PM
You are absolutely right. Thank you for the reminder. ♥
June 18, 2012 at 5:19 PM
That was beautiful.
June 18, 2012 at 3:40 PM
Thank you Rachel.
June 18, 2012 at 5:19 PM