Bipolar Quote For July 17, 2012

And Something’s odd – within –
That person that I was –
And this One – do not feel the same –
Could it be Madness – this?”
”~ Emily Dickinson

I adore Emily Dickinson. This poem relates to me as the mood swings of Bipolar Disorder…and perhaps for her to. It is no secret that it is believed she had some sort of mood disorder.

Depression and mania are two separate beasts to deal with…of course, most everyone would choose mania over the dreaded depression that slams you to the concrete.

As you know, I have been living here a week now. While I am ecstatic to be here, I can feel my moods starting to flip flop quite rapidly…even in a single day. I wouldn’t say I am “very” depressed, just a little melancholic… a bit irritable… slightly blue. And then there’s the mania. I do feel a bit manic… but not a-lot either. Just a touch more energy…able to stay up late and wake up early… feeling a little euphoric…but thankfully, not sexual. So I am doing a slight “swing” from one to the other. To be expected considering all things that have taken place. I am missing my family but not calling much because I don’t want them to hear the “blueness” in my voice…the blueness is not a reflection of being unhappy.

Now don’t get me wrong. I am happy to be here and seeing my kids is AMAZING. I would not even dream of going back to AZ… or anywhere else at this point. I know that this slight swing is a normal aspect of change.

But change is inevitable… and I embrace it. Now I have to get my brain on board with me. LOL ♥

19 thoughts on “Bipolar Quote For July 17, 2012”

  1. Muse, even good change and events cause stress, and can be a trigger for all kind of health issues. Just make sure you nurture yourself and give yourself space and time to work through it. If you find that your emotions are beginning to spiral, make sure you talk to someone; family member, friends, someone you feel comfortable talking it out with and who understands – it will really help. (You’re welcome to email me any time, too, I think you have the address.) Sending you lots of love and gentle hugs, my friend. ~ Love, Julie xoxox


    1. Thank you so much Julie. It is funny that you mention leaning on friends or someone close to me… 2 of my friends were the ones who actually brought it to my attention. I am fortunate to have good people in my life. A great friend I have known for years made me promise to talk to her if things get heavy for me… and i absolutely will. It has been a hard lesson but I know now that I cannot do this alone. I am not superwoman. ♥ Love to you…


    1. Hi, i will indeed check out your blog as soon as I reply here.
      As for helping your friend… I suggest educating yourself on the topic and then just let her know you are there for her if/when she needs you. Sometimes the best thing you can do is keep n open ear. :)


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