Though I have been studying my DBT (mindfulness) workbook I still notice flip flops in my moods. I do use the skill that it is teaching me, but there are times when it just won’t work. I know that I am making progress though and with continued effort, the moods will not flip flop because of a trigger.
To give you and example… I had to drive to a certain side of town and it made me instantly sick physically and mentally. Why? Because that is where I lived when my son was abuse and it brought back horrid memories that I DO NOT want entering my head. I have been over in that area a couple time and it never fails. It is like a like a light switch… my moods will go from great to lethargic and on the verge of tears. Not to mention that my Man can notice something is wrong as well. It is quite disturbing and something I will have to live with for the rest of my life…but will it always be so terribly raw? I hate feeling like I am on a mood seesaw simply because I have gone to that ares of time. I need to take my life back and get rid of that train of thought.
In the meantime, I will continue working in my workbook and put the skills to use.
- My Adventure To Med Free- DBT Skills Workbook (bipolarmuse.com)