About
I began writing when I was 11yrs old. Mostly poems at that time, about my life experiences and the depression that enveloped me at that tender age.
My life growing up was far from easy and I became an adult long before I should have.
Everyone has a story, some good, some bad, and some downright horrible.
Mine is somewhere in the middle.
I have suffered from depression as far back as I can remember, but the defining point came when I realized I was a separate entity from my parents.
As I have grown older my life has taken many twists and turns, of which I never wanted.
“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans”. ~ John Lennon
A series of life events- abuse by strangers, an unstable childhood, divorce, not having custody of my children, suicide of an ex-boyfriend, and my youngest son being physically abused by a despicable man- these are just a few things that helped to mold my mental health.
I suffer from Bipolar 1, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Anxiety.
All brutal and life altering.
I wanted to do a different type of “journal” by opening a blog to get my story out of my head, and help the healing process. And, of coarse, to write poetry.
If you enjoy my writing, Thank You. I appreciate it very much and hope you keep coming back as I add more pieces of my life.
Borderline Personality Disorder
Dialectical Behavior Therapy has been very helpful for many of those suffering from mood disorders.
Education is the key.
This is my life through poetry, quotes, and my journal. The intense ride of my ups and downs of life ...and the relentless mood disorders I suffer from.
Hey
. I nominated you for the “Seven “X” Seven Link Award”.
Check this out for more information:
http://artepiphany.wordpress.com/2011/12/24/awarded-d/
Happy Christmas and enjoy holidays =D.
December 24, 2011 at 2:18 AM
I’m not familiar with the seven “x” seven link award nomination. I did go to your link to read about it. Could you explain it to me at bipolarmuse@gmail.com? Lol, sorry for my confusion…
sometimes the simple things are most difficult for me to grasp…lol. And thank you for the nomination!!
December 25, 2011 at 11:01 AM
Merry Christmas!
December 25, 2011 at 11:02 AM
lol. okay
December 25, 2011 at 7:29 PM
Hey
, i nominated you for the versatile blogger award 
Check this out for more information:
http://artepiphany.wordpress.com/2011/12/26/another-one/
Happy Holidays
.
December 25, 2011 at 8:50 PM
Muse! Thank you for visiting my site and sticking around. Your blog is lovely–the poetry and ponderings. The images are especially gorgeous–very intimate and eerie. I love them.
I agree with you–humor is the best way to hold all our marbles together. Blessings.
December 27, 2011 at 10:14 AM
Thank you Sandy Sue for stopping by my blog as well… and thank you for the compliments!
I find your blog intriguing, and it flows so well I can’t take my eyes off of it.
I love to read of others who also suffer with these mood disorders…it’s nice to know I’m not alone. Such similarities, yet so different are the stories of our lives. Thank you for sharing.
December 27, 2011 at 10:55 AM
Hey muse,
I just noticed that you nominated me for the 7×7 Link Award again. Thank you so much! It’s only recently that I’ve begun reading your posts and I think I love them very much.
I’ve nominated you for the Kreativ Blogger Award (http://bluesander.wordpress.com/2011/12/30/the-kreativ-blogger-award/) and I hope you enjoy having that award too.
Congratulations and Happy New Year!
‘Nessa.
December 30, 2011 at 2:39 AM
Thank You ‘Nessa!! I am honored.
I too LOVE you writings, your blog is so well put together… beautiful.
Happy New Years!!
December 30, 2011 at 9:58 AM
and thank YOU for sharing your life with us. i am really enjoying your poetry, and can’t wait to read more.
take care, and happy new year to you!
sean
December 31, 2011 at 2:42 PM
Thank you Sean, it isn’t easy being so forward, but sometimes it’s such a great relief.
And thank you for reading… I also look forward to reading more about you.
December 31, 2011 at 3:01 PM
Thank you for subscribing. I notice some interesting posts here and shall return to trawl through them. Cheers, Eric
January 11, 2012 at 6:22 PM
Thank you Eric! I truly enjoy your blog…and I thank you for wandering over to mine.
January 12, 2012 at 5:16 AM
you may not know this, but every now and then i’ll read your posts on whatever website you’re writing on. your poems usually bring tears to my eyes…remembering all you’ve gone through and knowing how much you love your kids because i love mine just as much. i was going through the pictures on my cell phone last night with my son and up pops the picture of E in the jammies we sent him while the guys were in kuwait. it brought back fond memories of you and your family.
no matter how crazy you think you are, i’ve always thought you were a great mom and a great friend to me. i miss getting to see you at the shop bbq’s.
i hope life brings more happiness to you than you know what to do with. take care…L.
January 11, 2012 at 7:41 PM
Awe, L. Thank you. Your kind words mean so very much to me. I miss you…we did have a good friendship. Sometimes I wonder how different my life would be if I had just leaned on you more and built our friendship… to have a true friend in a foreign place. Maybe I wouldn’t be where I am right now.
I go see the babies in 3 weeks… a much needed trip.
I think E still has those Jammies! It was so cool of you to send that package.
Thank you for making me smile today, and cry a little. Good tears though. Keep in touch, and I will do the same. xoxo
January 12, 2012 at 5:13 AM
I am so inspired by your writing and your story. I have seen much of the same ugly side of life. I have noticed that it seems to be a trend among those with mood disorders. Perhaps, there is a special vulnerability.
I started writing at a very early age too. Unfortunately, I abandoned poetry over a decade ago at this point. When I do write, it’s usually in prose. That’s few and far in between anymore. However, your blog is so beautiful that I think I might give it another try. Thank you for being my muse.
January 12, 2012 at 7:36 AM
Your beautiful words brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so very much for the encouragement and amazing compliment.
These mood disorders are brutal… sometimes the best way to cope is to just throw it all out there, and for me, that is through poetry. I too abandoned it for a while, or would write here and there. After I destroyed my life for a 2nd time, I kept at it and have accelerated to quite a pace. LOL.
Reconnect with poetry if it feels right, it may be the outlet you need… and you will inspire others. ♥
January 12, 2012 at 8:04 AM
You have said it all. And I am always happy to give compliments to those well deserving. Right now, my medium is graphic art. I picked that up in my late teens, and somewhere along the way I abandoned that too. Now, I’m doing it again, and it feels great. I have some if you want to see. I house them at Bipolar Inspirations. The posts are inconsistent, I’ll admit.
January 12, 2012 at 9:44 AM
I will def check out your graphic art… that takes talent… gonna check it out now.
January 12, 2012 at 12:37 PM
Nominated you for the liebster blog award, check this out for more details:
http://artepiphany.wordpress.com/2012/01/16/im-back/
January 15, 2012 at 7:56 PM
YAY!!!!! Epiph, You are spoiling me, I am soooo honored!
January 16, 2012 at 9:07 AM
Thank you for liking my blog, but mostly thank you for sharing. We live a crazy life, full of ups and downs, and it is so inspiring to hear your determination not to let the darkness overshadow you. Thank you.
January 19, 2012 at 4:09 AM
Thank you for coming and reading a bit.
I am learning and growing. This life is a crazy one, but worth the ride.
January 19, 2012 at 9:18 AM
Thank you for following my blog, Muse. Nice to meet you.
Eve
January 25, 2012 at 5:03 PM
I just wanted to say that you have a beautiful and inspiring blog. I have also suffered through the bi polar wilderness, and you have certainly achieved a victory through your own illness through this blog. It is evident in every word you share. Keep on keeping on and Happy writing!
Blessings to you
Celeste
January 26, 2012 at 5:46 AM
I just wanted to let you know that I added your beautiful blog to my blogroll. I wish to help you spread your message of hope and perseverance. I love your inspiring works and I know others will too.
smiles for you
Celeste
January 30, 2012 at 5:29 AM
Wow! I feel so honored Celeste…this road is a tough one but invaluable. You have been an inspiration, you help give me hope. I thank you my friend. ♥
January 30, 2012 at 5:40 AM
Proud to be your 400th follower. Sorry, I just couldn’t let it stand at 399. Plus, I enjoy you blog. Keep it up!
January 30, 2012 at 2:01 PM
I love that you are my 400th flower… thank you!
Now I am off to read your blog.
Thank you for finding me.
January 30, 2012 at 2:12 PM
Thank you for sharing and opening yourself to the world. Such conviction and honesty is an inspiration. I am also using my blog to write some parts of my life, though some is through fiction, other memoir. I look forward to reading your posts. Peace!
January 31, 2012 at 5:59 PM
Thank you so very much for coming and reading.
I am looking forward to your writings as well…
January 31, 2012 at 7:04 PM
Love your new Gravatar picture…..you are a radiantly beautiful woman……wonderful photo!
February 6, 2012 at 11:06 AM
Thank you for such a wonderful compliment! My 6 year old took the picture for me at this beautiful park with waterfalls and lovely flowers. A serene moment.
February 6, 2012 at 1:01 PM
Hello sweet lady! I have nominated you for the One Lovely Blog Award! For details please visit this link: http://celestealluvial.wordpress.com/2012/02/06/one-lovely-blog-award-2/.
Congratulations
Celeste
February 6, 2012 at 9:40 PM
Celeste, I am so grateful you thought of me for this beautiful award! So very honored. ♥
February 7, 2012 at 9:23 AM
Hi! I have nominated you for the ABC Award. If you choose to accept, visit this link for details
http://myownavalon.wordpress.com/2012/02/07/abc-award/
Congratulations
Sirenia
February 7, 2012 at 1:32 PM
Thank you so much!! I love that I was nominated.
February 7, 2012 at 1:54 PM
Congratulations on the award and I love the blog. May I ask where you got the picture of the moon? It’s fantastic!
February 8, 2012 at 7:56 AM
Thank you.
As for the pictures, I get them from a website that hosts pictures for free. I do not take credit for any of them except one personally taken by me…as I have zero talent for photography.
Thank you for visiting!
February 8, 2012 at 7:58 AM
Hello you have had such a hard time , you must be strong you are still standing you are still writing. I saw on your comment to Martin Shone about Blue skies dreams, that you wanted to be a fairy, I love fairies. Write about them be one.
I have been depressed and loves someone who suffers with depression . Life is hard so you escape in your writing . I always wanted to be Star ship Pilot http://willowdot21.wordpress.com/2011/11/15/to-fly-a-star-fighter/ smile often and escape as much as you dare.
February 11, 2012 at 11:33 AM
Thank you so very much Willow, I am so appreciative of your comment and I do escape with writing, it is such a beautiful outlet, and smiling and laughter are great healers.
I am glad you found me and commented… as now I have your blog and very much look forward to reading.
♥
February 11, 2012 at 12:18 PM
I have nominated yourself for the Versatile Blogger Award if you should wish to accept it. Details are at
http://gjscobie.wordpress.com/2012/02/17/versatile-blogger-award-no-3/
February 17, 2012 at 1:30 PM
Thank you!! I appreciate it and love that you thought of me. ♥
February 18, 2012 at 9:20 AM
Not at all. I hope your weekend is going fine.
February 18, 2012 at 9:30 AM
I have also nominated you for the Liebster Blogging Award if you should wish to accept it. Details are are at https://gjscobie.wordpress.com/2012/02/18/liebster-blog-award/
February 18, 2012 at 9:47 AM
Wow!! Thank you kindly. I am so thrilled you nominated me.
Thank you GJ!
February 18, 2012 at 10:01 AM
You’re welcome
February 18, 2012 at 10:02 AM
Hello! I apologize in advance for the redundancy, but … I’ve nominated you for the Liebster Award! You’re a wonderful person and there’s a reason you’ve been nominated so often
http://fortysecondchance.wordpress.com/2012/02/19/liebster-blog-nomination/
Wishing you the best, always!
xxox
February 19, 2012 at 2:19 AM
Oh Wow!!! Thank you so very much!! I am so excited and honored.
Your compliment has touched me deeply. I thank you for your kindness and the wonderful award. 
I have allot of work to do!
February 20, 2012 at 10:34 AM
Hi! I nominated you for the Sunshine Award. Check it out on my blog @ http://ramblingsofacreativemind.wordpress.com/2012/02/23/sunshine-award/. Believe me when I say that you truly deserve it. God Bless you hun!
February 23, 2012 at 7:54 PM
I am speechless! Thank you for such a wonderful gift. I am so honored you thought of me for this award. ♥ Thank you!
February 23, 2012 at 7:58 PM
Tag you’re it!!
http://arjun1097.wordpress.com/2012/02/25/tag-youre-it/
February 24, 2012 at 12:51 PM
Hi Bipolarmuse! Your blog is awesome!
I’m glad that I’m now following.
I write poetry too. You may want to check these out: “Whirling Towards the Divinity”, “Love is the Water of Life”, and “Millions of Candles”.
Warm regards,
Subhan Zein
February 26, 2012 at 2:41 AM
Thank you for following.
I am honored. I will most definitely read these poems you suggest, and more.
February 26, 2012 at 7:04 AM
Writing gets the feelings out of us, and onto the page. Sad feelings so we can shed them, and happy feelings so that we can relive them and share them with others.
You’re inspiring.
February 26, 2012 at 9:13 AM
Thank you Edward for the beautiful words. I am so happy that I can offer some inspiration. And thank you for following, I am honored.
February 26, 2012 at 9:17 AM
You honor yourself.
February 26, 2012 at 9:21 AM
Just something I posted for everyone today, but you especially was heavy on my heart when I was putting it together…..For you from me….hope you enjoy it…..be blessed, my dear lady.
http://celestealluvial.wordpress.com/2012/02/26/kiss-the-son/
much sincere love
Celeste
February 26, 2012 at 12:02 PM
You’re pretty amazing lady.
February 27, 2012 at 1:47 PM
Thank you Paz, I am so touched to hear you say that. ♥
February 27, 2012 at 2:27 PM
Hello!
Even though I see you already have one – it dont stop me from giving you one more. I have nominated you for the Sunshine Award. Information can be found here:
http://myownavalon.wordpress.com/2012/02/29/sunshine-award/
You are an inspiration!
~ Sirenia ~
February 29, 2012 at 2:19 AM
Thank you Sirenia!! I am so very honored that you thought of me. ♥
February 29, 2012 at 9:49 AM
Hello!
I have nominated you for the Beautiful Blog Award. Follow this link for information:
http://wp.me/p1OTI7-pY
~ Sirenia ~
March 6, 2012 at 8:17 AM
Thank you Sirenia! I am honored. ♥
March 6, 2012 at 8:22 AM
Hey Muse
Seems like me and you could probably help eachother.
I was mis-diagnosed as bipolar 8 years ago, but have been re assessed, tested, poked and proded into a diagnosis of BPD, anti-social and generalized anxiety.
I just started writting a blog about exploring mental unhealth, and I enjoy reading and helping other people throught support (when I’m feeling well
)
so I just wanted to introduce myself to you, and let you know that I enjoyed reading your posts, and learnign about you
-Holly – Borderbetween.wordpress
March 6, 2012 at 12:55 PM
Hey Holly! Glad you stopped by for a read. We can definitely help each other.
Mental health is such an important topic… I commend your courage to speak out. ♥
I am going to check out your blog right now.
March 6, 2012 at 1:14 PM
I’ve stumbled upon your blog from carlarenee45′s page.
I’m looking forward to reading more from you, too.
CoF
March 10, 2012 at 5:50 PM
Thank you CoF! I am glad to have met you.
March 11, 2012 at 3:50 PM
Hiya nominated you for the Sunshine blog award and two other awards. Check this out for more information. Thanks.
http://artepiphany.wordpress.com/2012/03/12/awards-and-awards-and-awards/
March 12, 2012 at 3:15 AM
Epiph…. you are spoiling me! Thank you my friend! ♥
March 12, 2012 at 7:17 AM
March 12, 2012 at 7:22 AM
Hey sweetie….i got your lovely message….so great!!! I left you one too….:)
Celeste
March 15, 2012 at 4:13 AM
Hello Lovely Lady,
I just re-nominated you for the Beautiful Blogger Award. You are truly an inspiration to me and I want the whole world to know about you. Check it out at: http://nightshade130.wordpress.com/2012/03/15/the-beautiful-blogger-award/
Stay Blessed my Friend!
March 15, 2012 at 6:44 AM
Thank you so very much!! You are so wonderful to consider me for this beautiful award. ♥ It means so very much to me.
April 4, 2012 at 12:14 PM
I feel so fortunate to have come across your blog, where you write about such painful but important matters, yet in such a poetic and mannered way. I see I’m not alone in my respect–the list of awards you’ve won as a blogger is staggering. As a therapist who’s worked with a number of clients with mood disorders, I thank you for bringing the topic to attention, so beautifully.
March 21, 2012 at 10:07 AM
Thank you so very much. Your comment humbles me. I find it so important to speak publicly of my own trials with mental illness in hopes that it will give voice to others as well… to offer hope of better days to come… and for people to understand that not each day is “good” but there is a little good in every day. ♥
Thank you so much for reading and commenting.
March 21, 2012 at 10:58 AM
Tag! You’re it!
March 22, 2012 at 5:46 AM
It was inspiring to be at your blog Ma’m. Hope to read many many more from you for a long time from now.
March 27, 2012 at 8:01 AM
Thank you! I am glad that you enjoy it. ♥
March 27, 2012 at 8:06 AM
Okay, so basically I’ve nominated you for the very inspiring blogger award. I know, I know, you’ve already got it proudly on display. But to be frank, I haven’t had a chance to really tell you how inspiring I find your work and your life. So this is it, the grand reveal:
Enjoy your nomination, bipolarmuse, and- while I’m sure you know the drill, sommore information is available– both on Sirenia’s site (really she probably explains it better) and on mine.
Shortlink’d: http://wp.me/p1CeTj-78
Anyway, basically what I’m saying is: You are awesome. Keep being awesome whether you accept the nomination or not. <3 It's not an order or anything, just know that I like you the way you are and award or no award, that ain't gonna change.
<3s,
Eris
March 28, 2012 at 10:01 PM
Eris, THANK YOU!!! More than for the award. Your words of encouragement mean the world to me and I am glad that my blog touches you and that you share in my life with my poems and writings. Of coarse I accept and I will get on this today! It has been hectic… since coming home from vacation…. but I will get it done.
Thank you for your continued support. ♥
April 4, 2012 at 12:16 PM
Hello!
I have nominated you for the Creative Chaos Award. For more information, go here: http://wp.me/p1OTI7-u1
~ Sirenia ~
March 30, 2012 at 9:59 AM
#Inspired
April 9, 2012 at 10:33 PM
April 10, 2012 at 3:52 PM
I just found your blog. Enjoy it. You have won many awards. It must be wonderful ~
Can’t wait to see your next posts.
April 14, 2012 at 11:52 PM
Thank you so much! I do hope you enjoy reading my posts as I do writing them.
April 16, 2012 at 11:56 AM
I’ve got Bi-Polar, OCD and Aspergers Syndrome. Wishing you all the best in dealing with life.
April 17, 2012 at 10:35 AM
I wish you well also my friend. ♥
April 17, 2012 at 11:46 AM
Hey Riss! I’ve nominated you for the versatile blogger award
Check it out: http://varungenius.wordpress.com/2012/04/20/the-versatile-blogger/
April 20, 2012 at 7:56 AM
Thank you Varun!!
April 20, 2012 at 8:07 AM
As you will see from a click to http://bennaga.wordpress.com/2012/04/22/spring-cleaning/ you are included in my list of “recommended sites”. You are invited to accept any of the Awards offered here which you are not currently in receipt of. Should you have them all already I can only add to that fact by saying how much I enjoy your writings and honour their author.
- Ben
April 23, 2012 at 12:51 PM
Thank you Ben! I am so very honored, you have no idea.
Thank you for thinking of me and such a wonderful compliment. ♥
April 23, 2012 at 1:11 PM
My 18 year old nephew suffers from bi-polar disorder. It’s been a huge struggle for him and his mother. Thanks for sharing your challenges.
April 27, 2012 at 8:31 AM
Thank you for reading. I know this disorder infiltrates every part of your life…and of those around you. My heart goes out to your nephew and his Mom. With stability comes more peace. ♥
April 27, 2012 at 8:45 AM
All a part of the being human process…you are certainly not alone in this…I appreciate your fearless honesty…
April 27, 2012 at 8:21 PM
Thank you… and thank you for taking the time to read. It means very much to me. ♥
April 28, 2012 at 7:19 AM
(P.S.) You have a lovely, soulful smile.
April 27, 2012 at 8:23 PM
Thank you for the compliment.
April 28, 2012 at 7:20 AM
I have seen your link around for awhile, but actually came to your blog here for the first time tonight. After browsing through your archives I am pleasantly amazed by your depth and talent, and there is so much I want to say to you about your dreams, your mood swings, your undying love and loyalty for your children…Perhaps I will more one day. For now I just want to send blessings and let you know how much your journey has touched me…
April 27, 2012 at 9:08 PM
Thank you so very much. Your words truly touch my heart. When I began this blog, it was a place to vent and write poetry but it has evolved into so much more than that. To share my journey with others is an honor and I am moved when I get wonderful messages like your because it reaffirms that I am on the right path. Thank you for sending blessings my way. ♥ ((hugs))
April 28, 2012 at 7:29 AM
Hi bipolarmuse
I hope you are well?
I heard from Jill (magicallymad) over at Not Quite Dead and she felt (and I certainly agree) that you would make and excellent member of the Mental Health Writers’ Guild. http://mentalhealthwritersguild.wordpress.com . It really would be good to have you as a member of the guild so I would like to invite you to check us out and consider joining us.
I am not sure (the old mind isn’t working too great today) if we have spoken about this before but perhaps you could let me know how you feel about it.
Kind Regards.
Kevin.
April 29, 2012 at 7:58 AM
I would be honored to be a member of the guild! I have seen it on other blogs and wondered what it is about. I am going to go read more, it has so much wonderful information.
Thank you for inviting me Kevin, I truly am happy to be considered. ♥
April 29, 2012 at 8:16 AM
Hi again
I am delighted you have decided to join our little band of bloggers
I have today added your blog to the list of members on our Guild Members Page http://mentalhealthwritersguild.wordpress.com/guild-members/ and youare now perfectly entitled to display the Guild Member’s Log (featured on that page) on your blog should you so wish.
Additionally we run competitions ofr Guild Memebers every now and then (Heads Up – I will be announcing a new competition in the next few days) and also as a Guild Memebr can award the Guild’s ‘Warrior Child Award’ http://mentalhealthwritersguild.wordpress.com/the-warrior-child-award/ to any blogger (regardless of whether they themselves are a Guild Member or not) who inspires you and who you feel ‘has demonstrated in their writing both the ability to be as strong, determined or brave as a warrior whilst at the same time also showing that they too are as vulnerable as a child.’
Again – really pleased to welcome you and your blog into membership and I hope you will get a lot out of your membership,
Kind Regards
Kevin
April 29, 2012 at 9:19 AM
Thank you so very much Kevin. I am very honored to be able to participate in this and I will happily display the Guild members log.
Again, I appreciate you considering me for this wonderful honor. ♥
April 29, 2012 at 9:22 PM
I’m nominating you for the Three Bins of Blogging Brilliance (A Dotty Award).
There are no rules. You can link me if you want but don’t have to. The same goes for those you nominate. But please do link Dotty, the originator of the award
http://melancholicallymanic.wordpress.com/2012/04/28/a-dotty-award-f-to-the-u-to-the-c-to-the-k-yes/
dottyheadbanger.wordpress.com
♥
April 30, 2012 at 11:27 AM
AWESOME!!!!! Thank you Paz. I am honored!
April 30, 2012 at 11:40 AM
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May 1, 2012 at 10:10 AM
Thank you Bethany!! I am very excited you thought of me.
May 1, 2012 at 10:30 AM
Im glad I found your site !!!! I have written about my experiences with bipolar disorder and depression on my blog!!
Lookign forward to seeing more of ur site
May 10, 2012 at 3:27 PM
Thank you for your comment and I am glad you found me.
I am heading off to your site now. ♥
May 10, 2012 at 3:39 PM
I’ve lost brain cells… haha… I visted your page earlier. Your name didn’t register because “A spoon full of Suga” was on the brain.
Nice to have met you..
May 10, 2012 at 4:02 PM
I JUST CAME OVER TO GIVE YOU A HUG ……..
XX
NEVER FORGET HOW AMAZING YOU ARE ……….
PLEASEEEEE ………….. XOXOXO
I HAVE RESEARCHED BP ………… SINCE MEETING YOU —– ALBEIT VIRTUAL – SINCE MEETING YOU – I HAVE BECOME MUCH MORE AWARE OF BP AND HOW SO MANY PEOPLE IN OUR WORLD ARE JUDGED – IT’S NOT FAIR RIGHT ?
I KNOW THIS .,…..
I HAVE SUFFERED FROM PLAIN OLD DEPRESSION – SINCE BIRTH …..LOL ……
ON AND OFF ……. YOU KNOW ?
UNIPOLAR …… WHATEVER PEOPLE WANNA CALL IT ./…
I DON’T LIKE LABELS . BUT WHATEVER ….
I THINK YOU ARE VERY BRAVE AND I REAL ALL YOUR POSTS ….
SOMETIMES YOUR WORDS STRIKE SUCH A PAIN IN ME – THAT I CAN’T RESPOND ….
SORRY ABOUT THAT –
I GUESS I JUST WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND GRAVITATE TO YOUR LIGHTER POSTS . BUT IN ALL REALITY ….
THEY ALL STRIKE A CHORD WITH ME …..
NURTURE AND NATURE AND THE WAY WE ARE MADE AND WHAT WE DO WITH THAT – WELL IT EQUALS – WHOM WE ARE ……..
YOU CAN DELETE THIS IF YOU WANT ! BUT JUST WANTED TO SAY – ….
THAT I AM PROUD TO BE ON THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU XO
LOVE AND GINORMOUS RESPECT AND HUGS
XX
C
May 19, 2012 at 12:53 PM
Thank you Cat…. of course I will not delete this comment. You opinion and the way you speak your heart means very much to me. ♥
I will gravitate toward lighter posts… sometimes it is hard to do, especially when going through struggles. But that light is there and it is growing.
Much love to you my friend…xoxo
May 19, 2012 at 1:03 PM
NO NO MY SWEET ——— I WAS SAYING TO YOU THAT I TRY TO GRAVITATE TOWARDS YOUR LIGHTER POSTS – !
DON’T CHANGE A THING
I WAS SAYING THAT I READ EVERYTHING YOU WRITE AND SOMETIMES GET VERY CHOKED UP …… BUT IT’S BECAUSE I FEEL A TON FOR WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH- HAVE GONE THROUGH AND I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU ……..
THROUGH THE LIGHT THROUGH THE DARK THROUGH IT ALLL …….
YOU ARE A BRAVE WOMAN ………..
YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL AND I KNOW NO ONE CAN WAVE A MAGIC WAND AND MAKE YOU HAPPY ALL THE TIME ….
THAT IS HUMANLY IMPOSSIBLE ………
OR ELSE WE WOULD BE ROBOTS !!!!! LOL
I JUST WANTED YOU TO WRITE YOU A LITTLE LOVE LETTER TO SAY ……
WELL – WOW ……:)
AND KNOW I EVEN IF I DON’T WRITE SOMETHING DOWN I AM ALWAYS ON THAT JOURNEY WITH YOU ………
THAT’S WHAT FRIENDS DO
THEY WATCH OVER ONE ANOTHER –
EVEN IF THEY ARE NOT IN THE SAME COUNTRY ….
IT DOESN’T MATTER –
IT’S THE HEART THAT COUNTS ….
XOXOXOXO
May 19, 2012 at 1:11 PM
Honest, open, vulnerable, strong, thoughtful, gutsy- I could go on. But I’ll just say- thank you for sharing this journey. Will be happy to follow along.
May 31, 2012 at 11:50 AM
Thank you Thomas. I am honored that you are following along.
I too checked out your blog and look forward to reading more. ♥
June 1, 2012 at 8:02 AM
‘Genuine Blogger Award’ for you, my friend!
http://ravenousforlife.wordpress.com/2012/06/02/and-some-more/
June 2, 2012 at 8:21 AM
Thank you so very much!! I am beyond honored. ♥
June 2, 2012 at 1:05 PM
I just did my Beautiful Blogger Award nominations- “The Envelope Please” at http://www.onlyhereonlynow.com. You would have been top of my list but I saw that you- not surprisingly- had already been tagged for the award.
June 5, 2012 at 9:11 AM
Thank you so much Thomas!! I am humbled and honored…
I happily accept. ♥
June 5, 2012 at 9:27 AM
My Dear Respected Friend !
How are you ?
I have nominated you for “The Commentator Award” , I ‘ll be happy if you visit http://onlinefunland.wordpress.com/2012/06/08/the-commentator-award-for-online-fun-land/ and accept this honor to you by me.
Have a great day !
Regards !
June 8, 2012 at 5:59 AM
Thank you so much!! I am honored! ♥
June 8, 2012 at 8:13 AM
I have nominated you for the Reader Appreciation Award. Check it out here http://thesecretkeeper.net/2012/06/09/readers-appreciation-award-nomination/. I hope you like it. the secret keeper aka jennifer
June 8, 2012 at 10:55 PM
Thank you so much Jennifer…Your kind words mean so very much to me and not only touch me as a poet but also touch me on a very personal level. Your words help to affirm that I am on the right path…
Thank you for the award nomination and for your beautiful words. You made my day today.
June 9, 2012 at 8:08 AM
your poetry reflects from the inside of you. it is powerful, deep and honest. i love the way life brings to us what we need. your presence in my life is a good thing and i feel your effects on me are meant to & do have a great influence. keep on creating & being who you are. you are headed in the right direction. take care. go easy. jen
June 10, 2012 at 1:46 PM
That is such a beautiful compliment. Thank you so much. ♥
June 11, 2012 at 7:23 AM
Hi I just nominated you for an award. Congratulations.
http://silentlyheardonce.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=1325&action=edit#
June 9, 2012 at 3:01 PM
Thank you so very much! I am honored! ♥
June 10, 2012 at 9:41 AM
When I click on the link, it gives me an error message.
June 11, 2012 at 7:20 AM
You figure among the six folk who “comment” most regularly on “Ben Naga”. Here’s a small thank you for taking the time to write to me there.
For any of you who like to take part in the exchanging of Awards, check out the post “Chits For Chatting” (https://bennaga.wordpress.com/2012/06/08/chits-for-chatting/).
For those who don’t, simply allow yourself to experience a momentary warm glow in the knowledge that your efforts in writing so many interesting comments were much appreciated.
June 9, 2012 at 5:38 PM
Muse, I think I adore you! First, a John Lennon quote? Perfect! I also consider my life experiences to be somewhere in the middle. I am sorry to read you’ve been through some truly difficult things in life, but this journal blog is such a great way to get it out of your system-my inspiration too. I started writing poetry at 14 and found it to be cathartic. You’ve inspired me to consider posting some of my own writings, I’ve never really shared them, so, baby steps.
June 14, 2012 at 7:49 AM
This blog is a great way to get all the darkness out… it has been very therapeutic for me.
You definitely should post some of your own writings! I love it… it is my passion to write poems.
Thank you for reading and commenting. ♥
June 14, 2012 at 8:40 AM
Just to let you know that you have “A Thought Provoking Blog”. See more at http://bennaga.wordpress.com/2012/06/28/just-a-thought/.
June 28, 2012 at 12:49 AM
Thanks so much!! ♥
June 28, 2012 at 6:55 AM
You’re welcome.
June 28, 2012 at 9:02 AM
Riss, I’ve added you to my blogroll. Please take a look, and let me know if you’re okay with it!
http://ravenousforlife.wordpress.com/
June 30, 2012 at 1:42 PM
Thank is so Awesome!! Thank you very much. ♥
June 30, 2012 at 3:03 PM
I just happened to stop by… and I was really inspired by your writing!!
Keep going.. My hearty wishes…. Smile alwayss!! Cheerss
July 4, 2012 at 10:35 AM
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. Truly means a-lot to me. ♥
July 5, 2012 at 4:14 PM
♥ ♥ ♥
July 5, 2012 at 10:17 PM
Hi! I’ve tagged you. check it out here.
http://thesecretkeeper.net/2012/07/13/tagged-by-bpshielsy-of-the-bipolar-place/
July 13, 2012 at 12:16 AM
July 13, 2012 at 10:25 AM
hope you enjoy the questions. i wrote 1a, 2a, 3a, it’s a game that mu s/o and i like to play. it was fun doing this. loved you most recent poem. read it a few hours ago. the flying or falling angel. quite good. jen
July 14, 2012 at 3:03 AM
I love reading your blog, so I’ve nominated it for a Reader Appreciation Award!
http://thereclininggentleman.wordpress.com/2012/07/18/reader-appreciation-award/
July 18, 2012 at 12:28 PM
Thank you so very much!
July 18, 2012 at 5:19 PM
Hi, I nominated you for the The Sisterhood Blogger Award. Here is a link so you can accept if you want. http://wp.me/p28tjX-sV
Hugs,
Kim
August 12, 2012 at 1:54 PM
Thank you Kim!! I am honored.
August 12, 2012 at 7:04 PM
Muse, Muse,
It’s important for me to say that as I wrote today’s “Something Happened,” you were right there.
Thank you.
Tom
August 27, 2012 at 8:51 AM
Thank you Tom… I have been very behind in my reading so I am glad you commented here. I am off to read your post. ♥
August 27, 2012 at 5:00 PM
Hello! You’ve been tagged! If you like, check out these questions that I’ve answered, and answer them as well!
http://doorwaytoamaranthia.wordpress.com/2012/08/29/tag-im-it/
August 29, 2012 at 7:21 AM
Thank you!!
August 29, 2012 at 6:09 PM
BPMuse,
You suck at getting on my blogroll. You still have time to earn some points, though:
http://clownonfire.wordpress.com/2012/08/31/roller-giraffe-contest
Le Clown
August 31, 2012 at 6:33 AM
LOL… Le Clown… my life is insane busy right now and I have only minutes here in blog land it seems. I hate to disappoint you.
August 31, 2012 at 7:23 AM
You never disappoint me my friend. Should I forfeit your nomination?
Le Clown
August 31, 2012 at 7:24 AM
Booooo…. no. I am checking out that link now. ♥
August 31, 2012 at 7:28 AM
On the other hand, you are excellent at getting onto MY blogroll, and have been for months! Check out this duel, and ‘like’ our posts so we can defeat the evil clown!
http://edwardhotspur.wordpress.com/2012/09/19/tears-of-a-clown-part-one-duel-of-furry-fetishes/
September 19, 2012 at 1:28 PM
Got your email. Will get back to you when I know anything. Right now into creating Children Books. Plz Be patiient. In the meantime I have this message for you.
Hi! I’ve nominated you for a Beautiful Blogger award. If you’d like to accept you can read more about it here: http://thesecretkeeper.net/2012/10/17/beautiful-blogger-award-nomination/
October 16, 2012 at 9:39 PM
I have been so busy! I need to check my email really bad and will do that today. I know you are very busy… as am I but in a different way. LOL. Creating childrens books sounds amazing! Can’t wait to hear about it. Thank you for the award too… always makes my day. ♥
October 22, 2012 at 6:31 AM
I have nominated your blog for several awards you just need to go to this link: http://thesecretkeeper.net/2012/12/07/bloggers-are-writersartists-more-awards/ to discover what they are. Congratulations! J.K. Jennifer Kiley the secret keeper…
December 7, 2012 at 9:05 PM
Thank you Jennifer!!! You always honor me… ♥
December 9, 2012 at 5:38 PM
You are so welcome. If I have told you lately, you are a real inspiration to me and I can see by your followers, the same is true for them, also.
j.k
December 9, 2012 at 7:28 PM
You make my heart swell… that truly means so much to me. ♥
December 10, 2012 at 10:52 AM
Hi, I was awarded my second Blog of the year 2012 award and am honor to help someone else on their way of receiving their 6 stars. http://wp.me/p28tjX-yH
December 10, 2012 at 4:34 PM
Not an Award but a compliment. I enjoyed your blog during the year of 2012. Please follow the link to accept the honor. http://wp.me/p28tjX-A3
December 22, 2012 at 6:05 PM
Thank you so much!
December 23, 2012 at 9:33 AM
Hi, how are you?
Good news, we are giving you the “BEST MOMENT AWARD“. Congratulations and enjoy the rest of the day!
March 14, 2013 at 8:29 PM
Thank you so much! I am honored and I will work on this award soon.
March 17, 2013 at 11:27 AM