For several years, I did not turn on the TV. Nor did I watch anything online. It wasn’t anything I set out to do, I didn’t plan on it, and it wasn’t a big deal at all. Interestingly, as my life… actually what felt like my entire world, once it quickly began crumbling around me, it seemed to be just a very natural unfolding of life events. The chronological events of my life now simply distinguished from one another as “before” and “after”. And in the “after”, I no longer had a need or want for the television.
As I watch the news about missing planes, plane crashes, people in other countries exiled and searching for places to live, children washing up on to beaches, human trafficking, preteens and teens killing their “besties”, spouses killing one another, children killing their parents, people killing themselves accidentally while taking “selfies”, racial hate, growing cruelty in retaliation, law enforcement being targeted…
I can go on and on…
It literally hurts my heart… so much pain in the world, so much suffering, and it is brought on by fellow humans.
I must remind myself that yes, there is evil out there… but there is an amazing amount of good too.
Today… while I was waiting for medication…. a young lady was having a conversation with the pharmacist. She was crying, and I was trying not to eavesdrop and listen, but I could understand that she was in alot of pain, and in a horrible situation. The Doc was going to give her as many pills as she could get for the amount of money she had, plus a few more to get her by while she went back to a doctor to see about a less expensive replacement…. still crying, she thanked the pharmacist over and over for doing that for her. She sat next to me, still crying, and not a person would look at her. I looked at her and gave her a heartfelt smile that hopefully conveyed that I truly felt for her. I didn’t know her from Adam, but she was in serious distress and struggling. She acknowledged my smile and said “I look rather pathetic don’t I?”…… Before I could say a word, another lady who worked there came over and told her she needed 5$ more for a different medication. The poor woman started shaking, and crying even harder. In a soft and broken voice she said, “I don’t have it, I am pathetic aren’t I, that I don’t even have a dollar more to my name. I have nothing more… nothing to give.” She was sobbing… but even worse, she was breaking… I know because I have been there…
As the woman continued telling her they could not give her that medication without payment… I watched everyone else in close distance and they all pretended nothing was happening at all. They completely disassociated themselves… It made me sick.
I pulled out my wallet and handed the woman some money. Was it alot?? No. But to her, in that moment, it was. It was priceless. I know, cause I have been in that situation.
The woman continued to cry, but you could tell it was for a good reason. Her forehead softened, and a slight smile appeared. As she thanked me and asked how to repay… I told her not to worry about that… and that one day, when she was able, to just pay it forward… to lend a hand to someone else who was in need… and then tell that person to do the same.
I hope that there are others who do the same… what I gave was small, but the affects were huge.
Priceless to that woman in need. I only wish I could have helped more.
I don’t know how this went from no tv to the woman who needed help… my mind was racing… Normally while I wait at places, I turn on my phone and watch something on youtube, ignoring my surroundings. I don’t want to be that person anymore…. I need to pay attention, feel a connection to fellow people… I refuse to be a part of the disconnected any longer.
…. and so there is the connection… ♥